[ Of course he picks up - not immediately, but he isn't saving it from going to voicemail, either. ]
Hey, [ Jim greets. His voice is slightly tinny, as if he's in an enclosed space. ] I'm doing just fine. The station is stable and the emergency protocol opening up certain chambers has solved a lot of potential problems we thought we had a week ago. You doing alright?
[Sorry, he has to ask. He's been concentrating hard on the dragon thing (since he does feel partially responsible for allowing it to happen in the first place), but the idea that there might be something wrong with the station as well is worrying too.]
I'm alright. Busy. Doing a lot of research, here and there. Chased down a few more members of Mythi's Fang. In Khalo, no less. You know, when you invited me there, I didn't realize it would be so...
[ A beat of silence as Jim has a moment of ?? because of course there are potential problems. The station is known to have been abandoned and left with power fluctuations, even just that is enormously alarming considering the hundreds of thousands of people kept there in stasis. ]
Ah, yeah. The Natha left abruptly and put Thesa into low-power mode, like a stealth mode. They've been attacked before. There's something out there.
[ An unavoidable fact. ]
You did? [ That's good! He sounds optimistic at the idea of more of those fuckos in custody. But then he has to laugh. ] I wasn't asking you to church, Ianto.
Oh. Yes, sorry. I meant. Well, I know that you've been up there for the last while. I had just meant to ask for more of an update on it all. [He huffs out something of a laugh.] I'm not that preoccupied.
Although I did miss the part about how Khalo was basically a nudist fairy village. At least until I got there. Which was an experience in and of itself.
[Honestly, Jim.]
I hadn't expected church, but a little warning next time perhaps?
There was some damage, [ he admits. ] But I was able to determine why, and we've fixed a lot of it.
[ The hyper-alert now is worthy of concern, but having not been able to find a reason for it in any senor or log, Jim is hopeful that it's just on a timer related to the length of time the Natha have been gone instead of an actual threat sighting that they're just not privy to. PROBABLY NOT given how everything tends to go here, but that's why he and Duo put out a call to action on the network. ]
If I'd known you were heading that way, I would have, [ Jim points out. He's not in the habit of springing things on people; it had been a casual, flirtatious offer in the midst of a more serious discussion. ] Did everything go alright?
[Hoo, boy, what a complicated question that is. He's just going to. Focus on the business aspect of all of this.]
Yeah, I. We were following their trail, which supposedly was supposed to have come through Khalo. Once we knew that the altar was a dead end, that is. But they weren't there. In Khalo, I mean. Not anymore. And then with all the announcements, it was pretty clear that the dragon was a sure thing, so.
I've just been doing a lot of research. Trying to find answers. Running into a lot of dead ends. Taking communal baths with nude green fairy people when I feel like I'm at my wit's end. You know how it is.
The nude green fairy people are extremely gracious hosts, [ Jim says, in a tone of voice that suggests he invested an awful lot of their hospitality. (Look, man, that event ran all month and he was only at the beach for a hot minute, he had plenty of time.)
He's been listening, though, even with the occasional beep in the background on his end, paying some attention to the VR training module he's half-sitting in. No helmet on. ]
I've been going through the reports on the network when I have time. Seems like dead ends are the name of the game, though they're, you know, much further down the road each time. Which is progress.
[These eyebrows are definitely raised. He's not going to judge though, Jim. But he's definitely taking note.]
Mmm, yes. They were very accommodating for my odd human sensibilities of desiring to wear shorts while taking a dip in their pool. Maybe next time I can gather the courage to go full Roman, but. What can I say? I'm a Welshman, through and through.
[It's easy to talk about Khalo and the naked fairies. Khalo is light and fun and it's a distraction from the potential death and destruction that's coming their way, all wrapped up in a dragon-shaped package. Unfortunately, he can only allow himself so much distraction as well.
He takes in a long breath, letting it out slowly before he continues.]
I know that I've said this before, but. You are very good at staying positive, especially in the face of... All of this. How do you manage it?
[ He can't be a ho at work, he's behaved for months on El Nysa-- it was nice, that break. (Also strange, because it reminded him of the person he was before Starfleet, in a way. And he's not that person anymore, but without Starfleet, who is he?)
Anyway. ]
Mmm. [ Reflective. Jim wonders how to word it. ] I've seen enough disasters to know how useless it is to do anything but push forward. And.. if I wasn't positive, what should I be doing?
[ That doesn't sound rhetorical; it sounds like he's curious about Ianto's opinion. ] If I said, instead, that while it's great everyone is researching, the manner of reporting is scattered and disorganized, it's nearly impossible to wade through, and everyone's habits of running off on their own without communicating with the rest of the refugees is a crippling detriment to actual momentum, how would you react? Would you react well, or would you resent that some career officer is being a dick to civilians?
[Ianto's seen his fair share of disasters by now. Some day he might even talk to Jim about it. About Torchwood. He's been here long enough that he knows breaking the secrecy agreement is pretty much a null point these days. He wonders if it would shed him in any different a light in the other man's eyes. It's not as though his job was any different, really. It's not as though he technically lied. He does work for the government. Civil service. He just happens to defend the earth against alien threat. He's an archivist anyway. A researcher. He's not cut out for these major sorts of events. That's what his Captain is supposed to be there for. To help guide them through. But Jack's been missing for months even before the Storm hit Earth. Ianto isn't holding his breath now.]
Well, Captain. [He puts just enough emphasis into the word to let him know he means it amicably as much as anything.] I would say that that's a fair assessment of our movements. It's not as though we've got any great leader to turn to in the end. Especially when the Natha just up and disappear on us. We're effectively on our own out here, guessing in the dark. We're not a team. The only thing that unites us is our circumstances, and no one is obligated to work with anyone else, even now.
[Now isn't that uplifting? He's always been the cheery sort.] But we're trying. And if those of us who can might set an example... It's what I made an attempt to do, at any rate. Get people thinking. Talking to each other about it. I don't know.
You're not bothered, because you work in defense, [ Jim observes. ('Defense' is the world Ianto had used, when Jim asked for clarification. He remembers quite clearly.) ] But plenty of people don't like it, don't want to be 'managed', for one reason or another. Other military types don't always take well to it either.
[ Again, for one reason or another. Mostly, though, it's that once someone has been in command, they have a hard time taking anyone else's orders - or even suggestions. Jim's been there, but Jim's also been hauled up enough times that he respects compromise. Which is perhaps why he's up here working with teenage terrorists and bounty hunters and actually making headway as a team. ]
You said it, though: you're trying. We can't ask for much else. Those of us who give a shit have to be motivational forces able to find and put pieces together.
[Oh that's right, he had said that, hadn't he. Good foresight, past Ianto.
He has to smile slightly at the mention of 'other military types' not taking management very well, even if Jim can't see it over the phone. He knows exactly how that goes, all things considered. Don't tell John that you outrank him, Jim. He's pretty sure that John assumes otherwise, it would seem that Lt. Commander Sheppard is used to being the highest ranking officer around.]
No, they don't, do they.
[He lets out a breath.] I can't say that I picture myself as much of a motivational force, but I definitely give a shit, and I'm definitely trying. I just wish that I was finding better answers than I am.
[ The struggle of no one understanding navy ranks is always made worse by the fact that Starfleet uses them in a unique way. What's Jim gonna do, draw a flowchart? Nah, it doesn't matter. There's no Starfleet here, just jobs to get done. ]
What kind of work do you think you'd be the most effective at? Here, I mean.
[There's a little pause wherein Ianto makes himself comfortable where he's sitting. (Which may be Jim's own kitchen table -- he did say that he could stay there if he was in the area, after all!)]
Do you mean against the dragon, or in general? Because honestly, it's something I've struggled with here since the day I've arrived. So if you're offering advice, I'd honestly welcome it. I...
What I did, what I used to do. I was an archivist. A researcher. General support. And before that, a personal assistant. I worked my way up from there, and I was. Good at it. All of it. The thought of coming from there to, I don't know. Having to become a bartender or a barista? It just feels so. Meaningless. But I can't keep on doing nothing and expecting for John to support me either, that's hardly fair.
But as far as this specific scenario is concerned... I'm no soldier, Jim. I don't have a gun and I don't have the training to fight anything on this sort of a scale. But I can't just sit back and do nothing either.
[ Beepboop, on this end. Jim's listening, but he's working, too. There's really no time to waste these days, so hopefully it won't be begrudged. ]
There's a lot of room for that here, [ he says. ] And I mean in a capacity that's like ... working to uncover the various mysteries piled onto us purely by existing, without the Natha giving transparent answers, without knowing the real history of his planet. Not just a 'barista' capacity.
[ So that's, what, two percent less of a lost feeling, maybe? On this alien world. ]
[Ianto's not wasting time on his end but his eyes need a rest or they might fall out of his head, peering at all those obscure manuscripts on the subject for hours on end. Some jobs just need breaks out of necessity.]
Mmm. I do enjoy a good puzzle. And I wouldn't honestly take a word they said for the truth, not without evidence to back it up. Not that I'm not grateful for their help but. You know how it is.
[He huffs out a laugh.]
It's too bad that being skeptical isn't enough to pay the rent though. [It's what did the job back home, after all.]
I'm still not sure how much is cultural differences and how much is willful obfuscation, when it comes to their behavior. [ Dryly. Jim's still seen too much weird shit to take anything here at face value. And then-- ]
'Rent' is an awful concept, [ he complains. ] I can't believe so many civilizations and Earth were all just fine with forcing people to pay for housing and food and medical care for thousands of years. No wonder everyone here is miserable.
My thoughts exactly. I don't know which is more frustrating, truth be told. I'm sorry if that's culturally insensitive, or whatever. They never really gave us training on "what to do if a seemingly all-powerful alien lifeform was holding out on you", yeah?
[Actually, Torchwood's general rule of thumb was "If it's Alien, it's Ours" and "Shoot First, Ask Questions Later", but that was before they'd gotten themselves killed that way, so. Torchwood Cardiff is at least trying not to do that now that Jack is in charge. (Trying.)]
Listen, you don't need to tell me twice. If I could live in a world like yours, I would jump at the chance, you know. [He grew up in a council estate, for crying out loud.] Not having to worry about money would make my life a lot simpler. I had quite a bit saved away before the Storm and it might as well have been for nothing, starting over again here. Starting over again with everything.
Outmaneuver them, [ he mutters. Like he's done that before
or something. ANYway, ]
Ugh, it just gets on my nerves like nothing else. 'A world like mine' still isn't perfect, trust me, and we still have things like alcohol ration chips that everybody gambles and trades and owes, but this whole--
[ Frustrated pause. There's probably a hand gesture. ]
I hate it. It's abusive. How can people focus on bettering civilization if they're worried about eating - I know, I'm just. Preaching and bitching, at this stage. Sorry.
No, no, it's alright. We're all allowed to let out some steam every now and again. Trust me, of all people I know how important it is to get some complaining in here and there. After all. I am Welsh. [And a comedian too, fancy that.]
[Okay wait though, hold the phone, Ianto just has to mull that one over for a moment.] I'm sorry though, I just. I have to ask. Alcohol ration chips...? That's. First off, you ration your alcohol?
Can you think of a better way to do things in a post-scarcity economy where access to food and water is free? [ Verbal shrug. ] It's not strict. Some substances are just limited to prevent abuse.
[ And nobody but a handful of pitiable degenerates smoke. ]
It's just. An odd concept. If everything else has free access, then. I don't know, it just feels. Restricting. Like who has that right, yeah? To decide my allotment for me. I've got an unlimited supply of water but the minute I want to get trashed, there's a problem.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to criticize. It just feels a little like. Big Brother is watching. No wonder people use them to gamble.
[Maybe the future isn't all that it sounds after all.]
That's an interesting leap to make, [ Jim says mildly.
Fascinating, to borrow a word. Did old Earth humans really do things like refuse state-sanctioned medical care over similarly imaginary reasons? Who prioritizes getting drunk over housing, food, education, healthcare..? Culture is fuckin wild, man.
(It's so easy to get trashed just on your own credits. Jim knows way, way too well. He also knows well how easy it is to slip the system and become an alcoholic and beat the shit out of your stepkids or nephews with regularity.) ]
[Wow Jim, he's not prioritizing getting drunk over anything! But you've not explained this very well so as far as he knows you're getting what, one glass a chip? Especially when there's no reason to ration it anymore other than what "for the greater good"? Who controls where people live if there's no rent for that matter? And how did they get in such a position to have such power over other people's lives? He just has so many questions.]
Listen, I. Mentioned that I worked in defense, yeah? I know first hand how corrupt different branches of the government can become when they've got that much deciding power, that's all I mean. Maybe people are different in the future, but. I wouldn't think we've changed that much.
[ tbf he did say 'it's not perfect' and 'it's not strict'-- mostly, though, these are blind-spot differences in human culture that they're both missing, given the enormous shift in Jim's world. ]
Well. [ Hmmm. ]
The thing is, humanity was nearly extinct. Nuclear holocaust, the post-atomic horror. You talk about things that are a given about human nature, but humans had to start over. Our understanding of fundamental elements here are probably pretty different.
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Hey, [ Jim greets. His voice is slightly tinny, as if he's in an enclosed space. ] I'm doing just fine. The station is stable and the emergency protocol opening up certain chambers has solved a lot of potential problems we thought we had a week ago. You doing alright?
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[Sorry, he has to ask. He's been concentrating hard on the dragon thing (since he does feel partially responsible for allowing it to happen in the first place), but the idea that there might be something wrong with the station as well is worrying too.]
I'm alright. Busy. Doing a lot of research, here and there. Chased down a few more members of Mythi's Fang. In Khalo, no less. You know, when you invited me there, I didn't realize it would be so...
[Have you been there before, Jim?]
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Ah, yeah. The Natha left abruptly and put Thesa into low-power mode, like a stealth mode. They've been attacked before. There's something out there.
[ An unavoidable fact. ]
You did? [ That's good! He sounds optimistic at the idea of more of those fuckos in custody. But then he has to laugh. ] I wasn't asking you to church, Ianto.
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Although I did miss the part about how Khalo was basically a nudist fairy village. At least until I got there. Which was an experience in and of itself.
[Honestly, Jim.]
I hadn't expected church, but a little warning next time perhaps?
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[ The hyper-alert now is worthy of concern, but having not been able to find a reason for it in any senor or log, Jim is hopeful that it's just on a timer related to the length of time the Natha have been gone instead of an actual threat sighting that they're just not privy to. PROBABLY NOT given how everything tends to go here, but that's why he and Duo put out a call to action on the network. ]
If I'd known you were heading that way, I would have, [ Jim points out. He's not in the habit of springing things on people; it had been a casual, flirtatious offer in the midst of a more serious discussion. ] Did everything go alright?
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Yeah, I. We were following their trail, which supposedly was supposed to have come through Khalo. Once we knew that the altar was a dead end, that is. But they weren't there. In Khalo, I mean. Not anymore. And then with all the announcements, it was pretty clear that the dragon was a sure thing, so.
I've just been doing a lot of research. Trying to find answers. Running into a lot of dead ends. Taking communal baths with nude green fairy people when I feel like I'm at my wit's end. You know how it is.
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He's been listening, though, even with the occasional beep in the background on his end, paying some attention to the VR training module he's half-sitting in. No helmet on. ]
I've been going through the reports on the network when I have time. Seems like dead ends are the name of the game, though they're, you know, much further down the road each time. Which is progress.
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Mmm, yes. They were very accommodating for my odd human sensibilities of desiring to wear shorts while taking a dip in their pool. Maybe next time I can gather the courage to go full Roman, but. What can I say? I'm a Welshman, through and through.
[It's easy to talk about Khalo and the naked fairies. Khalo is light and fun and it's a distraction from the potential death and destruction that's coming their way, all wrapped up in a dragon-shaped package. Unfortunately, he can only allow himself so much distraction as well.
He takes in a long breath, letting it out slowly before he continues.]
I know that I've said this before, but. You are very good at staying positive, especially in the face of... All of this. How do you manage it?
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Anyway. ]
Mmm. [ Reflective. Jim wonders how to word it. ] I've seen enough disasters to know how useless it is to do anything but push forward. And.. if I wasn't positive, what should I be doing?
[ That doesn't sound rhetorical; it sounds like he's curious about Ianto's opinion. ] If I said, instead, that while it's great everyone is researching, the manner of reporting is scattered and disorganized, it's nearly impossible to wade through, and everyone's habits of running off on their own without communicating with the rest of the refugees is a crippling detriment to actual momentum, how would you react? Would you react well, or would you resent that some career officer is being a dick to civilians?
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Well, Captain. [He puts just enough emphasis into the word to let him know he means it amicably as much as anything.] I would say that that's a fair assessment of our movements. It's not as though we've got any great leader to turn to in the end. Especially when the Natha just up and disappear on us. We're effectively on our own out here, guessing in the dark. We're not a team. The only thing that unites us is our circumstances, and no one is obligated to work with anyone else, even now.
[Now isn't that uplifting? He's always been the cheery sort.] But we're trying. And if those of us who can might set an example... It's what I made an attempt to do, at any rate. Get people thinking. Talking to each other about it. I don't know.
[He really misses his team.]
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[ Again, for one reason or another. Mostly, though, it's that once someone has been in command, they have a hard time taking anyone else's orders - or even suggestions. Jim's been there, but Jim's also been hauled up enough times that he respects compromise. Which is perhaps why he's up here working with teenage terrorists and bounty hunters and actually making headway as a team. ]
You said it, though: you're trying. We can't ask for much else. Those of us who give a shit have to be motivational forces able to find and put pieces together.
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He has to smile slightly at the mention of 'other military types' not taking management very well, even if Jim can't see it over the phone. He knows exactly how that goes, all things considered. Don't tell John that you outrank him, Jim. He's pretty sure that John assumes otherwise, it would seem that Lt. Commander Sheppard is used to being the highest ranking officer around.]
No, they don't, do they.
[He lets out a breath.] I can't say that I picture myself as much of a motivational force, but I definitely give a shit, and I'm definitely trying. I just wish that I was finding better answers than I am.
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What kind of work do you think you'd be the most effective at? Here, I mean.
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Do you mean against the dragon, or in general? Because honestly, it's something I've struggled with here since the day I've arrived. So if you're offering advice, I'd honestly welcome it. I...
What I did, what I used to do. I was an archivist. A researcher. General support. And before that, a personal assistant. I worked my way up from there, and I was. Good at it. All of it. The thought of coming from there to, I don't know. Having to become a bartender or a barista? It just feels so. Meaningless. But I can't keep on doing nothing and expecting for John to support me either, that's hardly fair.
But as far as this specific scenario is concerned... I'm no soldier, Jim. I don't have a gun and I don't have the training to fight anything on this sort of a scale. But I can't just sit back and do nothing either.
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There's a lot of room for that here, [ he says. ] And I mean in a capacity that's like ... working to uncover the various mysteries piled onto us purely by existing, without the Natha giving transparent answers, without knowing the real history of his planet. Not just a 'barista' capacity.
[ So that's, what, two percent less of a lost feeling, maybe? On this alien world. ]
Right now is just a shitshow for everyone.
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Mmm. I do enjoy a good puzzle. And I wouldn't honestly take a word they said for the truth, not without evidence to back it up. Not that I'm not grateful for their help but. You know how it is.
[He huffs out a laugh.]
It's too bad that being skeptical isn't enough to pay the rent though. [It's what did the job back home, after all.]
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'Rent' is an awful concept, [ he complains. ] I can't believe so many civilizations and Earth were all just fine with forcing people to pay for housing and food and medical care for thousands of years. No wonder everyone here is miserable.
[ >:( ]
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[Actually, Torchwood's general rule of thumb was "If it's Alien, it's Ours" and "Shoot First, Ask Questions Later", but that was before they'd gotten themselves killed that way, so. Torchwood Cardiff is at least trying not to do that now that Jack is in charge. (Trying.)]
Listen, you don't need to tell me twice. If I could live in a world like yours, I would jump at the chance, you know. [He grew up in a council estate, for crying out loud.] Not having to worry about money would make my life a lot simpler. I had quite a bit saved away before the Storm and it might as well have been for nothing, starting over again here. Starting over again with everything.
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or something. ANYway, ]
Ugh, it just gets on my nerves like nothing else. 'A world like mine' still isn't perfect, trust me, and we still have things like alcohol ration chips that everybody gambles and trades and owes, but this whole--
[ Frustrated pause. There's probably a hand gesture. ]
I hate it. It's abusive. How can people focus on bettering civilization if they're worried about eating - I know, I'm just. Preaching and bitching, at this stage. Sorry.
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[Okay wait though, hold the phone, Ianto just has to mull that one over for a moment.] I'm sorry though, I just. I have to ask. Alcohol ration chips...? That's. First off, you ration your alcohol?
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[ And nobody but a handful of pitiable degenerates smoke. ]
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I'm sorry, I don't mean to criticize. It just feels a little like. Big Brother is watching. No wonder people use them to gamble.
[Maybe the future isn't all that it sounds after all.]
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Fascinating, to borrow a word. Did old Earth humans really do things like refuse state-sanctioned medical care over similarly imaginary reasons? Who prioritizes getting drunk over housing, food, education, healthcare..? Culture is fuckin wild, man.
(It's so easy to get trashed just on your own credits. Jim knows way, way too well. He also knows well how easy it is to slip the system and become an alcoholic and beat the shit out of your stepkids or nephews with regularity.) ]
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Listen, I. Mentioned that I worked in defense, yeah? I know first hand how corrupt different branches of the government can become when they've got that much deciding power, that's all I mean. Maybe people are different in the future, but. I wouldn't think we've changed that much.
[Just look at what became of Torchwood One...]
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Well. [ Hmmm. ]
The thing is, humanity was nearly extinct. Nuclear holocaust, the post-atomic horror. You talk about things that are a given about human nature, but humans had to start over. Our understanding of fundamental elements here are probably pretty different.
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i'm sorry for my speed this week was Something. and for ianto being such a downer...
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